I asked myself today..

What exactly do I want? What is my goal?..

Yes, for objective reasons and because of the financial crisis that is currently sweeping the world (in Ukraine it is because of the war, in Europe because of refugees from Ukraine who are there because of the war, in America it is because of… well, you know). In addition to this crisis, there is also what is called “artificial intelligence”, when many people are fired, and others have to work much more than usual just to stay in their place and not be fired. So… what’s the plan, boy? There is no point in you moving anywhere precisely because of all these reasons. But what do you want, somewhere inside?

Of course, I would like some stability and an understanding of what kind of world you will wake up in tomorrow. And so far I don’t objectively see any possibilities to live in such a world. Yes, probably the only option here is to “pack your bags and go to New Zealand, which is far away, where English is needed and where you are not needed as “some kind of specialist”. Otherwise, you are still not insured. So?…

I think that I really, at least for now, have no options to even think about them. I just have to hold on and somehow try to survive this period. Therefore, I look at all the options that are offered and try not to lose the little that I still have. Because the crisis is stronger than it might seem. And it is only starting to drag on. I see this in the ability to buy something from people. This is a clear sign that everything is “very bad”.

I want to develop an English-language blog (this is the main one), create creativity, and… live. If I want to do this, then it is better to do it all in the place where I am now. It is time to change something and in general there will be more, well, no, no. I am tired of being upset because I can’t be what I can’t be.