Crea 2.0

This song has been on the list for quite some time, but recently it has taken on some new colours. I guess… I guess the thing is that every time I’m broken by the reality of not understanding – what exactly and how to proceed. I always need a plan even where there shouldn’t be a plan. And what can I do about it?..ugh…

“I been looking myself up and down checking all my flaws out
I been saying shit to the mirror that isn’t nice for quite a while now
Hate myself it’s a full-time job I want some time off
24/7 brain is open and you know she never shuts up
Shuts up
In the club
Looking at the other girls
With their bigger butts
Ugly crying in the car
Like what the fuck?
Why am I not smart like Rosa Parks
Or fit like Kate Moss
I get
I can’t please everyone I see
But it would be nice
If one day I could just please me
I would never ever judge anyone else
Not in the way that I judge myself
I made a prison now I’m stuck in this cell
Maybe I could use some help
And I wish that I — I — I
I could see myself
From o-other eyes
They would tell me girl
You’re fine
So stop messing up your life
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da

I just wanna like myself”