Thoughts

Random fact

Saint Creature June 21, 2026 1 Comment

I have always had it easier with people who are not accepted by society, because such people accepted me. I accept people as they are. Any. Except for those who commit violence against others. They should burn in hell, of course. In turn, this unspoken rule applies to me too – you don’t need to wear a mask. You are just who you are.

Therefore, “your people”, or “your person” – will always come across your path. No matter how long or short it may be. Just look not among those who do not understand – but among those who are on the same wavelength.

Manifesto (smart talk’s with Daria)

Saint Creature June 12, 2026 No Comments

“The truth is that people like you and I are self-sufficient. The fact is. That we are socially dependent is another story. But we don’t plan to “live with the whole world.” So objectively. What is the main thing for people like us in another person who should be there?
1. Acceptance of us as we are. With the need for additional communication. Will all people give us this opportunity? No.
2. The opportunity to share something and be heard. For example, your “employee” – he has not passed this test. Based on previous thoughts.
3. Warmth of relationships. We are ready to give warmth and would like to receive it. Not for a “well-executed command” (like dogs), but simply. Because they see us as a living person. So if a person does not treat you “warmly” or does not make contact – it is not that the problem is there. It is just that either you do not have a connection, or the person does not perceive you (read point 2).
4. Shared leisure. An important point. Because without shared activities, there is no relationship. And this is about whether you either go somewhere together and like it, or watch/listen/read something that you can talk about later.
5. The future. In general, this is not about “our” relationships, but relationships in general. People should see a common future. In a common place. In a common reality. If people at our age do not see a common future, it means that they have already set different paths. They will not change over time. They will simply diverge even more. Therefore, at this stage, it is important to share and hear about how a person sees himself in 5-10 years, conditional.

It would seem that this is all about the “basics”, but we neglect about 3 points out of 5 every time, and think that the problem is us. But the problem is not us, but that you are simply different people. With different ideas/attitudes towards life.”

On happiness among people of high spiritual development

Saint Creature June 6, 2026 No Comments

“As before – I think the exact opposite. That is, the lower a person’s vision is, the… easier it is for them to live. When visualizing, just imagine it as a horizon. The further the views open up to you – the harder you see your path, because there are mountains, stones, rivers. If you “fly low” and see only the road ahead of some trees – everything seems easier/simpler to you. As an example – I think that the saddest people would be those who knew how they would die. Currently, I relate to them, in the sense that my current vision of life shows that it is not from some disease. There was a strange time, a long time ago, when I wanted to get sick with something incurable in order to have “clear deadlines”.

But returning to people who knew how they would end up in general – they knew how it would end, and would constantly think about it. The same goes for us – we constantly think about “what’s a little further over the horizon”, and we understand that in some places we still won’t know everything. Therefore… I guess we just have to live by desire. By the present. Do you want to get a divorce? Get a divorce! You can get married again tomorrow, or maybe with the same person, if your paths cross again, but in the moment, right now – do what you want. Because only in this way will you remain, albeit conditionally, happy. When you do not do what you have or what is expected of you, but what you want yourself, inside…

Time 4 Stop

Saint Creature May 25, 2026 No Comments

Sometimes you come to the conclusion that you just need to stop and…talk about something. Not with someone, with yourself. Because there is no time for anything. Everyone needs something, everyone is running somewhere. Again, I am glad that people turn to me with various requests and…it brings me income. It is wonderful. My plan for life is simple. To earn money with services, so that you can buy goods with them, so that you can have something more serious from their sale. Approximately the same as when I started 15 years ago. But now everything is completely different and more difficult. Therefore, you should not complain about it. You just have to go this way. Now I get tired at one in the morning, although before I could freely go to bed at four.

My psychological state has stabilized. I do not think that it is because of the pills. It is just that everything in my relationships with people has fallen into place. That is enough. Sometimes I still remember that I am like that “kettle”. Which can suddenly boil over at any time. I ask myself “what then?”. I find the strength to restrain myself from any impulses. And are there those impulses now? But I know that I am me. I have never felt stable. There are just states of remission. There are just states of exacerbation. It is difficult to say when this or that happens. Sometimes it seems that I am just waiting for an exacerbation to look for ways to solve the problem again. But I would like stability. But is it in the environment in which I live? I planned that from April I would not have days without work, because everyone will have to clean chimneys. May is ending, we cleaned, with all our might, 5 objects. Although it was supposed to be the main income. There are things that do not let me go higher. I just always miss them.

Sometimes it seems that I lean too much on this person. Too much. Something needs to be done about this. Because it’s not right. I have to be self-sufficient in everything. I don’t know how to build a relationship with this person. I’m used to understanding and planning everything.

“Who are you with the lights out?
I don’t feel right when I’m all alone
My human nature makes me a stranger
To everyone I know.
I know it’s all lies I brought to life
Now I don’t know how to be someone real
Hate that I fake the way that I feel.

Voices
Fill my head with noises
Drain me of this poison
‘Cause I’m not who you think I’ve been

Frozen
I’m someone I don’t know and
Cycle’s never broken
And I’ll die a silent stranger.”

Wherever I am, I always have the feeling that I’m running past. It’s like you’re driving on the highway, but on the side of the road. You see people, cars, and other things rushing by. Like in an old movie.

Sometimes I ask myself “what do I want?” And I don’t have an answer to this question. I just do what I have to do. To just keep living. A closed cycle.

There are many people who say that I’m easy. That you talk to me and it becomes easier for them, and as if there are no problems in general. Few people think about what the price is. I don’t know the price myself. I just feel that one day I will have to pay it.

“Let’s spend the day in bed, talk about you instead
My head is not my friend, my head is not my friend
Something to take off the edge,
’cause I can’t go back again
My head is not my friend, my head is not my friend
My head is not my friend..”